feelin feelin downn

u noee..

relly feelin down now

dunno wat to dooo

why me?

why owes me been choose to b lik dis?

i keep askin askin myselff

oh lord.why me been choose suffer lik dis ?

why me

why me  

why me

tell me plsss

why me !!!!

:(

the perfect holidayyyy,yuhuuuu =)

yeah yeah

i'm so excited bcoz finally my dream come true

wahahaha :D

well..

u wanna noe wht?

welll tht's a scret haha!

only me and him noe de secret de laa

haha

yayaya

so unforgetable moment which only me and him

can spend our holiday together..

:)

i'm so happy when i'm think about that

it makes me non-stop laughing and keep thinking about it..

haha

how i wish the time will stop at tht time..

well its ok..

as long as my dream came true..

i juz wish i can hv opportunity nxt time just lke thizz

yeah yeahhh!!

am really2 happyyyyyyy

and now non-stop smiling when am thinking bout that,hehe :)

the best memories in my heart,will keep it foever,thanks 4 everything

;)

too hot,maybe?

today at kb again too damm hott !!

adoi i oso duuno y,ody bath sveral time oso hot!

really2 hot lik crazy heree!!!

just hope tonite got plan wif my friends for hanging out 2gther..

well..itz just too bored stay at home..

haizz..i oso dunno how to dscribe it

damm bored here!!

yayaya

today my frend ask mt to goin out wf her

to watch the pirate of caribean la tu i guese

but haizz

i'm so sad oo cannot go out like them

c they can own their own freedom

but me?

owes at home

really2 feel like being in prison!!

seriously !!

sometimes i really hate to go home

and i dunno y i'm owes feel lik tat?

izit its juz a feeling or sumting else?

sometimes..

its just TOO MUCH in my head dat i really2 can't bear it!

i duno how to let it outtt!!

my family's and my relationship iz not that close lik other ppl..

i really2 want to find a way out from tizz!!

think i will goin crazyyy

coz its just too much i should think about..

i'm 19 tiz year.

and fel alot alot of pressure and very2 stressful!!

i need some place tat i can be calm and make my heart warmm..

i noe whr to find it..but..

its just too hard for me to found it

i dunno y its just to hard for me sometimes to go through my own life..

based on not being approved and just have to heard and accpt ppl's suggestion..

i owes being forced to follow their decision..

and owes said its for my own goodd!!

i never ever been heard of my own decision or wat did i'm exactly wanted in my life..

i really hate it!!!!!!!

i hate them when owes said for my own good but actually make me more suffer..

but i have to do it,i have no choice!! =(

i feel so down now..i really do..

i duuno y i feel lik diss,sometime i really hope i can't get out frm here,

its juz make me so cmfuse..

well,its juz my feeling rite?

and it juz doesnt matter to them,yeah i noe that.

i just wanted to let out something,and i hope one dy i can hv exactly what am going to do.

another holiday waitin for me,yuhuuuuu!

wat can i say?

another holiday 4 two weeks later ! hahaha

haizz

but arr nothing progrm oso baa...

i thnk my life getting boreddd noww

stay at home oni really2 not fun at all..

i really2 hope my friends got the plan to fulfill my holiday coz its getting suck nowww!!

24 hours at home worrr!

heyy! i'm 19 ody jorrr!!

unbelievable owes stay at home over a months and months and months OK,THAt's enuf.

super crazy boring life noww..

tell me plzz wat to do nexttt..arggggghhhhhh !!!

er..todayy arr..hrmm..

er..:P

today kan i'm stay at home la

lazy going to school oo

haizzz..u noe y?

bcos ntg to do at thr,dats y lorr..

hrmm..

ok..about 2 months like dat my life will getting lonely and lonely than ever :(

my MR A wanna go for furtger stdier liao lorr..

so hard for me to let him go far far from me..haizz..

but wat can i do,i'm sure that we will hv a long distance relationship..!

yeah,i know i can hndred percent sure tat we will b not seen each other at least for a year?

maybe?who's know,rite?

hrm..

really2 dunno wat to do if he is goin far from me..

haizz.. 

he's the one who's owes understand me & alwys gve me support when i'm down..

seriously,sometimes i really think that we are made for each others :)

I really need him by myside owes..

owes and i mean always..

but as usual,I owes feel sad when can't meet up wif him till now..

waiting and waiting the time to come..

whz really2 hard for us to meet each other,there's owes something tat happen btween US :(

sometimes i will just wondering how far we can go for each other?

by then our relationship owes keep growing up till noww..HAHA..( if u noe wat i mean)=.=

i just waiting and keep waiting hereeee

i hope that i can meet him just before he's goes far away from me..

keep waiting and praying for him.ALWAYS in my heart :)

say hello to the world :)

hey heyy..

yup today i'm super excteddd! yohoooo

and i oso dunnO y..

hahaha

yesterday nite i didn't sleep

bcoz my MR A and me hang out together till midnight

haha!

we hanging on the phone oni laa

haizz so pityyy

owes didn't have chnge to see each otherss..

haizz..

now

guese wat?

i'm now blogging at the school lehh

dun jelouss!!

wahhaaaahaha :D

YUP YUP

i'm getting super xcited liao rite noww

wahaahha

&& i dunno y

just felt release and happy

hihi :D

Yeah yeah!!

finiz exam liaooooo finallyyyyy!!

hrmm..

butt still wanna get readyy foe the next exam lurr

being a student owes been like dat..

sometimes i will feel tred and hopeless

but i still keep stronger than ever 

and i hope i can get throught all the pain that i get 

either at home,at school or even been hurt by my frend or bf..

i will keep be stronger and strongerrr!!

yeahh

i know i can do it! :)

examinatiOn!! a really2 stressfull dayyy everrr!!

yeahh..i rally2 hate ooo when getting exammm!!

As i said,exam is SUCKKK!!

haizz

what can i doooo

everydayyyyyyyy just reading reading reading

ADOiiiii

so jelous of some of my friends that can enjoy enjoy & keep enjoyyy!!

hrmm...

BUT

ysterday niteee i watch the badminton final match btween MAS and CHINA.haha!

i really2 like tO see it,well..as usuall,the HERO of MAS owez won the match!Yohooooo~

haha :)

yaa..

really2 damm stressful ever in my life during tiz 2011 and i dunno y..

i just try to keep pushing myself 4 stdy hard & harder..

i wish all my result can get flying in colour..how i wish tat :(

 07.05.2011

which iz my anniversvry with him..

we have been 2gether for 3 years and 10 months!!

can u imagine that?

yaa we have been couple since i was 15 years old till now lor,19 alredyy..

BUt..HAizz..thrs always been something that will separated us

i had nvr seen him about 3 months liao..

haizz..wat to do..

mm..

OK laa..

that's all,As long as i'm happy,OK liao la KAN? hihi :)